Really!?

Burn out forces you to ask brutally honest questions. The first question I had to face was simply - Really? In the widely admired and widely embraced poem Invictus, William Ernest Henley wrote the famous words, “I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul.” His words are often admired because they describe what we'd like to think is true about surviving and thriving in life. Many embrace Henley’s words because they reflect the way we prefer to live our lives – dictating the terms. As I hit the wall of burn out I realized that I had a question for William Ernest Henley and all who embrace the sentiments described in Invictus. Really? We alone are the sole masters of our fate? There never has been and there never will be any other shaping influence in our lives that was completely outside of our control? We alone are the captains dictating the ultimate destinies of our soul? We are the ones in control here? Really?In all honesty, I ask these questions of myself as much as I’m asking it of you the reader.  It’s only fair that I provide full disclosure to you by confessing I am a control freak. I’m one of those people who wishes I could say, “Yes!  Of course I’m the master of my fate.” I just feel better when my opinion matters more. I tend to grow in confidence when I get to call the shots because I think things turn out better when I do. I’m pretty sure that if people thought like I did, and lived like I did, they would be much happier and the world would work a whole lot better.  I admit there is a deep part within me that admires the words of Invictus because they reflect what I usually think and feel about how to make it in this tough world.I know I am not alone.  Many of us are control freaks.  Scratch that, in my experience it’s probably more accurate to say most of us are control freaks!